I know that everyone has busy lives and I am really very appreciative of all of you who take the time to stop by, sharing the things you make and offering encouragement.
This week I was confidently expecting to be writing a very different post - Mr RH was away for the week, I was free from my day job and I had a long list of things I planned to do to finish the Makery (which will give me a permanent place to work and somewhere I could potentially offer knitting and/or sewing lessons) and make some patterns and 'real' items to expand my etsy shop into into more of a business. I love making things and, although this amazes me, I have sold more than 1000 Caravan patterns now so I don't think the idea of selling some other things is completely off the wall. I had been looking forward to this week for a very long time. Of course I wasn't expecting a week entirely free of obstacles - Fiona always likes to help!
But it was not a week for inviting a house guest. A guest, however, who faces the same daily disruptions and interruptions to their creative endeavours, who was fully aware that I was going to be spending the week working but that that they were very welcome to come and do the same and who very much wanted to come seemed manageable...
|I was halfway through a post when I left the room...|
Suffice it to say, I didn't sew a stitch. I hardly turned on my computer. I didn't even attempt to make a pattern. I did manage some frogging and a small amount of crochet (to the background music of how crochet isn't her thing). I mostly did nothing except drink tea, talk a little and listen a LOT. Sparing you the details and everything that isn't related to my blog/shop, which she described as 'playing on a computer', the gist was that being able to knit or sew is 'nothing special' and back in the day everyone could not only do these things but they did them better, that making things 'isn't anything important', is 'not doing anything productive' and is a waste of money because it's cheaper to buy them. By the middle of the week, I felt like giving up and throwing my computer and sewing machine into the pond. By the end of the week, I felt like jumping in myself!
Yesterday, I couldn't bring myself to end a week, to end the week that I'd hoped would be such a spectacular success, without even a minor finish so I crocheted all evening. I'm very sorry to anyone who came by hoping to link up.
Today, I realise that it wasn't really last week I heard that I was 'nothing special' and the things I make 'aren't important' and 'anyone could do them' and other people (someone in particular!) does everything so much better. I have heard all those things forever. I hear them always and so quietly and subtly I don't even hear them but they nag away somewhere making me constantly question whether trying to make a success of my little Rainbow Hare venture is a waste of time and diverting my time and energy to 'more important' things. So today I'm going to say, in capital letters:
If you have any yarny posts, I'd love you to link up with WOOL ON SUNDAYS. The rules as usual are: 1). Posts must include some content - makes or musings or photos - related to knitting, crochet, felting, spinning or yarn. 2). Projects sewn from felt or wool fabric or stitchery using wool are also welcome but please don't link posts that are exclusively about sewing, quilting and fabrics. 3). Posts don't have to be from the past week but please put a link to WOOL ON SUNDAYS or grab the button from my sidebar and include it in or at the bottom of any posts you link up. 4). Visit anyone else who links. Wishing you a happy week :)
I AM SPECIAL
MAKING THINGS IS IMPORTANT
These are simple things, which I never doubt for a moment where other people are concerned and, from now on, I will stop doubting them of myself. I have now finished the crochet circles cushion. I frogged the outer circles and now the coloured circles are not so circular but my aim is for this to be different to the other two Makery cushions so they are none of them too samey although they all use the same Drops Saffron yarn and I think it is different enough from the others.
This week I will make something else and I will post on my blog and visit other blogs. Next week I will make more things and blog more and blog visit more and so I shall go on and my Makery will be finished and my shop will grow...
Janine @ Rainbow Hare